End of the world?

So. An earthquake, eh? Exciting times. Except that I missed it. Entirely. I was jogging during the largest earthquake in this area (which was still not that big relatively) in the last 140 years, and I didn't even notice it. I'm terribly disappointed.

In other apocalyptic news, apparently Hurricane Irene is due to make landfall on the Eastern Seaboard this weekend. Should be exciting. Even if the hurricane misses us, we'll still get incredible storms. Brilliant. And to think, I have no End Time Water.

Speaking of the end of times, I think that my time in New York is coming to an end. At least for now. I don't think that it'll be forever, and I certainly hope that it won't be. But things just aren't working out the way I wanted them to. And the way things have been going recently, I think it might be best if I take a short hiatus and go back to Pittsburgh. I need to get my feet under me.

Atlantic has been great. I love everyone there, and I feel like such a part of the family. But after September 6th, they won't have any work for me for months. And they're the only theater in New York to show any interest in employing me so far. And I can't just hang around here losing money waiting for someone to decide I'm worth a chance. I've had quite enough rejection in my life recently, thank you very much. And that rejection is too close here. I think some time with my family will do me good.

I'm not giving up. I will be a Broadway Producer. But the path ahead of me is not leading me in the way I thought it would. And I have to do my best to just embrace what's going on in my life, and learn to live with it. Sometimes bad things happen to people who don't deserve it, and sometimes it's really hard to live with those bad things, and sometimes there's no end in sight, but you just have to deal. Because at the end of the day, I have it pretty damned good. I have a family that loves me unconditionally and supports me totally. I have some really great friends that are a part of my extended family. And I have a goal, a fire in my belly that is driving me forward. I can make it, and I will prove that I have what it takes. That I am worthy of love, and respect. I will keep calm and carry on.